In the pregnancy and infant loss community there’s a quote most often used by Ronald Regan that says: When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe …
Disheartening Doctor News
Shortly after learning that our IVF cycle had failed, Chase and I met back with our doctor. He was very sorry that this cycle didn’t work. Unfortunately, he didn’t have good news for us. Here’s briefly what he said: My egg quality sucks There are 5 ways to bring a baby to our family; an …
Second IVF Cycle: Moving Past a Negative (bfn)
The two week wait was pretty long. I don’t think I have ever wanted the time to move faster than those two weeks. Chase was also gone for almost a week of that, so that made the time go by even slower. I tried staying positive and being mindful of what my body was going …
Second IVF Cycle: Embryo Transfer
The days leading up to embryo transfer after egg retrieval from our second IVF cycle, weren’t the best. I decided to work half a day and was the worst idea ever. My body needed to rest and recover, it had just gone through surgery. We got a call from the embryologist telling us our fertilization …
Second IVF Cycle: Injections and Egg Retrieval
From the start, I haven’t been mentally been in this second IVF cycle. Taking each day at a time, rather than dwell what lies ahead. Yes I prayed extra hard that there would be more than 5 follicles retrieved, but that was pretty much the extent of my effort for this cycle. Like last time …
Starting Our Second IVF Cycle
In preparation of our second IVF cycle, I started skimming an IVF book that I got from the library. One of the chapters was on surviving the infertility roller coaster. The author mentioned that with each new cycle you are given a clean slate. So for us that clean slate is: Taking the RE’s recommended …
Reflecting on Mother’s Day
This year I am reflecting on my own mother and other strong women for Mother’s Day. I love listening to podcasts. I happened to be listening to one that helped me reflect on my own mother and the example that she’s given me. I’m the oldest of 3 in my family, and my parents got …
Our IVF Journey Take Two
We waited over a month to get back with our RE after our miscarriage. We’re discussing what our next steps will be, most likely IVF again. Here are some things that we discussed: A possible reason I experienced bleeding in the TWW, was because the embryo attached near a blood vessel. My RE said the …
Trials, and why Infertility happen to me?
Growing up I always thought if something bad happened to me I had done something wrong in my life. I did all the things required as a good christian: What I’ve learned since is that bad things still happen to good people, that’s just life. We all are given trials. When Chase and I were …
Having Strength to Move Forward after IVF
The two week wait requires lots of patience and strength. The days following Embryo Transfer are known as the dreaded Two Week Wait (TWW). You wait until your period starts or your hCG beta blood test to determine if you’re pregnant or not. About 5 days after Embryo Transfer I started getting period like cramps. …