Infertility Marriage

Trials, and why Infertility happen to me?

Growing up I always thought if something bad happened to me I had done something wrong in my life. I did all the things required as a good christian:

  • read my scriptures
  • I prayed daily
  • I had a testimony of Christ
  • I went to church

What I’ve learned since is that bad things still happen to good people, that’s just life. We all are given trials.

Chase and I hugging at a family photo

When Chase and I were dating I had this feeling…

This feeling was one that told me that if you married him, you may not be able to have children. It wasn’t very loud, just a soft little voice that came to me. I brushed it off, because I wasn’t ready to have kids, and I wasn’t prepared to be a mom. I’ve since realized that feeling I had has spoken true.

This quote got me thinking about the trials we face here on the earth, and how we can better ourselves by the hardships we face:

“Something wonderful happens when we really know, without a doubt, that God loves us‚ questions completely change. Instead of asking, Why did this happen to me? or‚ Why doesn’t God care about me‚ we say, Well, I know God loves me; I know that. So what can I learn from this experience? Sometimes we think our trials come because we did something wrong. That’s not always true. Adversity is simply part of earth life. From it we can grow and progress if we choose to. Yes, some trials come because of our own disobedience, but many trials are simply part of life.

“God already knows what we‚ made of, but perhaps He wants us to learn what we‚ are made of. I think we would all agree that we learn more from our tough times than from our easy times. Sometimes bad things happen to good people. We don’t know the meaning of all things, but we know God loves His children! And because He loves us, He will never desert us.”

John Bytheway

There were so many times I felt abandoned by God while dealing with infertility. I felt like He had left me completely. But the one thing that I did not do, nor forget to do, was get down on my knees and pray.

Many times when I felt so low and depressed by infertility, I always heard a little voice pop into my head say “have you prayed?”

In a way, it humbled me enough to remember that God still wants to hear from me. That He is still really there, wanting me to come talk to Him about my problems, and that He has not deserted me.

I want you to remember, God will never abandon you. He is still there always listening to you, but you have to humble yourself and pray to Him. That is the only way that He will give help to you, by asking.

Our trials/hardships are to help us become strong and to overcome our weaknesses. In 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, His grace is sufficient for us. Meaning He will give us aid, but all we need to do is ask. He is after all, an all loving, and merciful God.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

We can gain His strength for our own trials and weaknesses. Through my infertility trial, I now have more strength to get through the every day trials in my life.

Remember God is a merciful God and He loves us and will give us strength, but we need to pray to Him with a humble heart.

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boho I can do hard things

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