The other day while I was driving with Chase I started thinking about the bigger picture. That this whole earth experience is one long waiting game. From the moment we are born we wait to die. I believe that there was a before we came to earth and there is an after once we die. …
In the pregnancy and infant loss community there’s a quote most often used by Ronald Regan that says: When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn’t a word to describe …
Shortly after learning that our IVF cycle had failed, Chase and I met back with our doctor. He was very sorry that this cycle didn’t work. Unfortunately, he didn’t have good news for us. Here’s briefly what he said: My egg quality sucks There are 5 ways to bring a baby to our family; an …
The two week wait was pretty long. I don’t think I have ever wanted the time to move faster than those two weeks. Chase was also gone for almost a week of that, so that made the time go by even slower. I tried staying positive and being mindful of what my body was going …
The days leading up to embryo transfer after egg retrieval from our second IVF cycle, weren’t the best. I decided to work half a day and was the worst idea ever. My body needed to rest and recover, it had just gone through surgery. We got a call from the embryologist telling us our fertilization …
From the start, I haven’t been mentally been in this second IVF cycle. Taking each day at a time, rather than dwell what lies ahead. Yes I prayed extra hard that there would be more than 5 follicles retrieved, but that was pretty much the extent of my effort for this cycle. Like last time …
In preparation of our second IVF cycle, I started skimming an IVF book that I got from the library. One of the chapters was on surviving the infertility roller coaster. The author mentioned that with each new cycle you are given a clean slate. So for us that clean slate is: Taking the RE’s recommended …
This year I am reflecting on my own mother and other strong women for Mother’s Day. I love listening to podcasts. I happened to be listening to one that helped me reflect on my own mother and the example that she’s given me. I’m the oldest of 3 in my family, and my parents got …
We waited over a month to get back with our RE after our miscarriage. We’re discussing what our next steps will be, most likely IVF again. Here are some things that we discussed: A possible reason I experienced bleeding in the TWW, was because the embryo attached near a blood vessel. My RE said the …
Growing up I always thought if something bad happened to me I had done something wrong in my life. I did all the things required as a good christian: What I’ve learned since is that bad things still happen to good people, that’s just life. We all are given trials. When Chase and I were …
